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First of all I am in support of MM and have been all my life. My family has been helping me with the understanding of this since I was diagnosed with severe depression, migraines and insomnia since I was around 12 years old. When any of meds that I was placed on started making me ill the doctors considered me untreatable( I have adverse reaction that are not life threatening but can causes complications that make you wish you were dead) Up until 6 years ago I treated a majority of my health issues MJ. Then I failed my first drug test(+ for THC in a psychs office and labeled an addict)My family bought in to the mj is bad for you thing and eventually convinced me to stop and give the newer drugs on the market a chance. In the last 3 years they have all slowly changed their mind. Of course dying 3 times and spending 7 weeks in a coma went a long way to this effort especially when they didn't think I was going to live.(or live without severe brain damage) It has been 2 years since I've come home from the hospital and you could almost say that I am no better now except for the fact that they fixed holes in my bowel, removed dead intestinal tissue and removed a non-cancerous tumor. I have an undiagnosed gastrointestinal disorder that makes eating most foods nearly impossible without muscle spasms, severe pain, nausea and diarrhea.( right now my diet is mainly coca-cola, frozen popsicles and yogurt(liquid diet supplements cause diabetes while I was in the coma so they are not an option) The diet specialists have taken away excess fiber such as grained breads oatmeal and even cereals. no veggies with fiber nor greens ones as they clot the blood and I still cant walk very much. They have also taken away all foods with seeds, all nuts, and kernels. Because of long time prescribed steroid use for seasonal allergies and drug allergies I now have arthritis in my hands and wrists. I have arthritis in both knees that need replacing at least 6 months ago. I need another surgery to fix another tear in the muscles in my abdomen. At least coming off several of the prescribed drugs I no longer suffer severe dizzy spells and passing out daily. I still have an ulcer on my foot due to being dropped on the floor in the hospital while being transferred from one bed to another. I also seem to have possible permanent nerve damage to both my feet from the spinal block I was given during this surgery.( I had to learn to stand and walk all over again) I had no problem qualifying for MM as you can see especially when a pain management clinic states that I cannot be treated due to allergies to drugs and they cannot treat abdominal pain. I made sure the MM doctor had all of this in my file. I qualified for more than 1 condition.

 

Ive looked at a lot of posts where people tell you to go to compassion clubs to find help in locating a source for meds. I've done this and not gotten good results What if your someone like me - I don't have the full support of my spouse( only partial after he has seen what he views as either over medicating or smoking for the sake of getting high) whom I must rely on to get anywhere.( he is my state paid cg providing cooked meals bathing and shopping help etc. We were not sure if I could even grow as the state pays him to take care of me and I cannot take care of a grow as of yet) I was hoping we would find something in common with others as he doesn't smoke and neither of us drink.( something to talk about besides MM) The only one who has offered their services to me is a little bit difficult for me to take up on the offer anymore right now because 1. It was a 40 mile drive one way to get the meds which my spouse doesn't want to do after working all day. 2. He decided to add up the costs of the service fees alone and figured out that I was now paying triple what I was paying before I became legal.( my illegal source now refuses to help me with relief for fear of being persecuted as most of you read about the busts that are happening and he is also angry that I could afford to get a card(ssd discount plus my spouse paid for the script for me to be legal) and he could not(no insurance to see doctors to get a medical record)) I do have a family member that is trying to help me with my grow but it has taken 3 months to get a couple of seeds to finally sprout this weekend. Gods willing they will make it to sexing and I'll have a female. But usable meds are a long ways off as we do not know what type of seeds I procured are.

 

So as i sit here again not sleeping I am starting to question whether it was really worth it to come out in the open and get legal. I have a spouse who doesn't think CC's are compassionate and might have members using them for illegal purposes. I have family members afraid if I go to another private party hosted at someones home it will get raided.

 

Anyone that can help shed some nuggets of wisdom it would be appreciated. I have an 18 month old grandson I would love to see more and watch grow up. B)

 

I live in the 4 corners area of Farmington hills oakland county

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im truly sorry to hear all of this. You my friend need some good help! there are alot of good c.g's out there, I can tell you one you dont want to sign on, but that is only one out of i believe a few thousand registered now! My significant other does not use pot my meds, she is supportive of me, I am able to grow, I just wont do it until i get my change of plant possesion back and drop of my c.g, personaly becoming legal has had me in the court system 2 times, I am a legal mm patient card holder, as soon as my card came, I sent in change c.g papers, I took off my c.g and mark that i will possess my plants, So realy the only thing my c..g did was delay me in getting med grade mm. I trusted some one I didnt know! my bad!, but this too shall pass. as far as cost, it does suck, i can get my main pain med for 20.22, for 120 a whole months worth, and one of my axiety pills for 16 bucks a month, so basicly i could live on them meds, until i got liver disease and died from them. and yes rite now it cost me prop 10 times more than what it cost for my prescriptions. I did read all of your post and I dont believe you say where abouts you are located, I would at least put the county that you live in , in this thread, there are alot of caring people on this site, also c.gs, I realy hate to say go to a despensary if you are near one,(not because i dont beleive in them) but because you indicated that the price of mm is a source of the frustration your husband is having, I realy dont blame him, but I dont see any other choice for you as you indicated, pharmicuticals dont help but harm you!

 

 

I truly wish I could help you. I realy dont know where you are, so I cant even offer you what im able to get now from the black market, (but i can tell you this, it is better than some so called jamican skunk I got from my former.no experience at growing c.g) I guess i am lucky at this time to be getting med grade from underground for 200 a pop! there are even compasionate people out there who are not registered with the state, alot of my long time aquantances grow and have for years! they are not willing to register with the state and be put under a microscope, I have to say i dont blame them, I kinda wish i wouldnt have broadcast to the state that I SMOKE MM!!!! watch me! come mess with me! sorry that is how i feel now, so for now I will stay within my legal limits, and yes i know i am legal on paper to grow my own rite now! but i was legal to use mm when i was arrested for possesion also,(i had paraphanilia and a few roaches, no measurable amount of mm) Im not willing to put my family or me thru that again,

 

dont give up. Hang in there, some one is going to offer you the help you need today, god willing!

 

I hope you and your spouse can come to some kind of compromise so you may live as normal a life as possible with your medical conditions!

 

Peace!

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hi dragonoath, If I lived near you I'd gladly help and not charge anything but I'm not very mobile and have no one to help me. I wish there was some kind of MM friendly group that would exist for the sole purpose of helping people in your situation and similar. There are so many in need who have no one or are dependent on maybe one or two people who can't always be there when you need them and if they're not MM friendly that makes matters worse. My heart goes out to you. There are many good compassionate cg's who will give out MM without charge and even deliver it for those on limited incomes who are disabled, they would grow for you or prob'ly help you with your grow. I hope someone in this group will step forward and be that person.

 

I would like to talk to some people about starting a group that'd help those who really need help and can't get out and/or can't pay; maybe someone at this site has an idea and we could get something going. I truly believe we're all here to help each other, not just in this group, but when there's a person in need, someone should step up and lend a compassionate hand.

 

Sincerely, Silverblue

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hi dragonoath, If I lived near you I'd gladly help and not charge anything but I'm not very mobile and have no one to help me. I wish there was some kind of MM friendly group that would exist for the sole purpose of helping people in your situation and similar. There are so many in need who have no one or are dependent on maybe one or two people who can't always be there when you need them and if they're not MM friendly that makes matters worse. My heart goes out to you. There are many good compassionate cg's who will give out MM without charge and even deliver it for those on limited incomes who are disabled, they would grow for you or prob'ly help you with your grow. I hope someone in this group will step forward and be that person.

 

I would like to talk to some people about starting a group that'd help those who really need help and can't get out and/or can't pay; maybe someone at this site has an idea and we could get something going. I truly believe we're all here to help each other, not just in this group, but when there's a person in need, someone should step up and lend a compassionate hand.

 

Sincerely, Silverblue

 

You are awsome! I say we all (those of us who want to be patient/c.g or can) get 5 patients in our own countys, and us patient c.gs get a c.g in the next county over, and get a little orgainized, we can cover the whole state legaly and make sure people that need help get it! we no we have extra, and I know how good it feels to recieve w/o conditions, I also know how to give! Thanks silver blue You realy are one of the good ones I can tell!

Peace!

Jim

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You are awsome! I say we all (those of us who want to be patient/c.g or can) get 5 patients in our own countys, and us patient c.gs get a c.g in the next county over, and get a little orgainized, we can cover the whole state legaly and make sure people that need help get it! we no we have extra, and I know how good it feels to recieve w/o conditions, I also know how to give! Thanks silver blue You realy are one of the good ones I can tell!

Peace!

Jim

 

Thank you. (Blushing) I'm gonna talk to some people and see what I can do, I couldn't be a cg but if I can help get this network going and find someone in dragonoath's area that'd be a good start.

 

Silverblue

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I wish more people would see this thread and find someone who can help dragonoath and many others in similar situations. People need compassionate care in their homes, MM friendly people who will help with their meds and grows, help with errands and chores. I wish I could do it, I'd be there in a nanosecond. We have to help each other, no one would wanna be in a situation like this. So many been injured by pharma drugs, too many traumatized by lack of compassion, including me, yet I have so much to give but am very limited, those who want to do more are unable to, while so many who can have cold hearts. We could get a network going and make sure no one is without help, it wouldn't take much, there must be other compassionate people who can be trusted who are genuine, able and willing to lend a hand. The stories I've heard make me eternally thankful my situation isn't worse. To me, if one person suffers, we all do, because we are all connected. I know the world has made it difficult to find the time and strength to reach out, it's hard enough to help ourselves and survive, it hurts knowing others suffer much worse, yet no one hears their calls for help, they fall between the cracks of the system, overlooked because of fear and shame, ignorance, blame, people don't know what to do or unable to help. We can't always depend on agencies to help us. Winning this war includes supporting those in need who may have no one to turn to. I'm so thankful for this site, I count my blessings, despite my struggles, knowing it could be much worse. Every act of compassion brings a little more warmth into this sad, cold world. Those who have money and power may be riding high but they lack something deep inside; their riches can never compensate for the true riches many of us have which no amount of money or power can buy.

 

Sincerely, Silverblue

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I wish more people would see this thread and find someone who can help dragonoath and many others in similar situations. People need compassionate care in their homes, MM friendly people who will help with their meds and grows, help with errands and chores. I wish I could do it, I'd be there in a nanosecond. We have to help each other, no one would wanna be in a situation like this. So many been injured by pharma drugs, too many traumatized by lack of compassion, including me, yet I have so much to give but am very limited, those who want to do more are unable to, while so many who can have cold hearts. We could get a network going and make sure no one is without help, it wouldn't take much, there must be other compassionate people who can be trusted who are genuine, able and willing to lend a hand. The stories I've heard make me eternally thankful my situation isn't worse. To me, if one person suffers, we all do, because we are all connected. I know the world has made it difficult to find the time and strength to reach out, it's hard enough to help ourselves and survive, it hurts knowing others suffer much worse, yet no one hears their calls for help, they fall between the cracks of the system, overlooked because of fear and shame, ignorance, blame, people don't know what to do or unable to help. We can't always depend on agencies to help us. Winning this war includes supporting those in need who may have no one to turn to. I'm so thankful for this site, I count my blessings, despite my struggles, knowing it could be much worse. Every act of compassion brings a little more warmth into this sad, cold world. Those who have money and power may be riding high but they lack something deep inside; their riches can never compensate for the true riches many of us have which no amount of money or power can buy.

 

Sincerely, Silverblue

 

 

I agree brother. It saddens me to see that this is all who replied to this thread. There are so many people in her area too. It's not like she's in the UP or something. I'll do whatever I can...I'm in the next county over from her. Still waiting to hear back from her....

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I wish more people would see this thread and find someone who can help dragonoath and many others in similar situations. People need compassionate care in their homes, MM friendly people who will help with their meds and grows, help with errands and chores. I wish I could do it, I'd be there in a nanosecond. We have to help each other, no one would wanna be in a situation like this. So many been injured by pharma drugs, too many traumatized by lack of compassion, including me, yet I have so much to give but am very limited, those who want to do more are unable to, while so many who can have cold hearts. We could get a network going and make sure no one is without help, it wouldn't take much, there must be other compassionate people who can be trusted who are genuine, able and willing to lend a hand. The stories I've heard make me eternally thankful my situation isn't worse. To me, if one person suffers, we all do, because we are all connected. I know the world has made it difficult to find the time and strength to reach out, it's hard enough to help ourselves and survive, it hurts knowing others suffer much worse, yet no one hears their calls for help, they fall between the cracks of the system, overlooked because of fear and shame, ignorance, blame, people don't know what to do or unable to help. We can't always depend on agencies to help us. Winning this war includes supporting those in need who may have no one to turn to. I'm so thankful for this site, I count my blessings, despite my struggles, knowing it could be much worse. Every act of compassion brings a little more warmth into this sad, cold world. Those who have money and power may be riding high but they lack something deep inside; their riches can never compensate for the true riches many of us have which no amount of money or power can buy.

 

Sincerely, Silverblue

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I'm sorry I haven't look at peoples posts yesterday. I got what some would find as good news from doctor yesterday. I didn't take as good news. My tests for spinal damage came back as negative which means that's not the problem. Made me a little suicidal yesterday. I am doing all this without meds except for vicodin and klonopin. I now have to go through more testing. I am just tired of it all. You get to a point where you are sick and tired of being sick and tired. where it takes every part of your being just to get out of the bed. You feel like your all alone. I know I had a semi-normal life once and I want it back. I used to be able to walk and take a bus if wanted to go somewhere now it costs me vicodins to get a ride 1/2 mile to go to a doctors office not money. I'm not that sick and stupid to be used in that way. Just because my fiance has to work. it bad enough his job used me for a second year in a row not to give him a raise(way to make me feel even better)

They few cg's Ive made contact always tell me things cost money. I know that. I see that. Hell a ride even cost me when my fiance isn't home. But does anyone know what compassion is?

 

My mother is trying to help me but I'll tell you just how full her plate really is.

First of all, she is not a well person herself I'm tying to talk her into qualifying for mm herself. She has 3 stints in her heart and needs the fourth. Because of her insurance co-pays she cannot afford to go back to the doctors let alone get the medications he prescribes her. She is married to a man who is not MM friendly at all for one and is seemly a online homosexual(caught putting images of himself on websites). She also has taken in my daughter and 18 month grandson who won't look for work or go to school that's why she doesn't live with me(and it seems her new boy friend lives with her too). She doesn't contribute anything to the house in money or chores( another reason she's not with me) and last but not least she is the legal guardian of my 42 year old mentally ill brother. she has to take him every where and manage all his fiances. Which takes takes up what little free time she has left. And now in I walk to the picture I'm her only daughter and I have died on her in the hospital several times. I try not to be any burden on her right now. She has asked to help be my cg to help me afford the costs of MM and my hopes will be that when she gets going is that she can afford to become a patient too. She has shown me what true compassion is and can be. To give of yourself even when there is nothing left to give but the shirt off your back and I wish there were more people in the world out there like her B)

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Thank you to those responding to my post here about helping people. I have a lot of ideas and wish I could get some people to help get it started. Even if MM passed everywhere and the feds recognized it, there'd still be a need, because not everyone would wanna be around an MM user.

 

Sincerely, Silverblue

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dragonoath has anyone from this site offered to help you who you might be able to trust? There's so many members here I can't believe there's no one. I'm hoping to get something going, a group of compassionate MM friendly people who can visit patients and help them but I can't do it myself- I'm disabled and very limited, there's no one to help me most the time. If I could I'd be there and it wouldn't cost you a thing.

 

Sincerely, Silverblue

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Yes someone has responded to my post and I would like to thank them with all my heart. Me and my family are very grateful for the help and compassion being shown. I know in the future when I start feeling better I will be able to pay it forward to others in need. It is my families hope to eventually be able to help other in need too. This just happens to be a very rough time with both me and my brother being ill He just under went emergency hernia surgery) at the same time. My youngest brother does counseling for inmates at Macomb County Jail when he is not working 2 jobs to pay his bills.

My fiance is also thankful that there are people out there that are not out to make a quick buck off those that cannot afford it and it has shown him that there are people that need marijuana as medicine not as an excuse to get high. And I thank you again for saving me, my relationship and my family, I am ever so grateful. :D

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My dear Dragonoath...please read Rockinlespauls email, and you will also find one from me. We are not that far away, and there is still at least one club that adheres to a compassionate path thru this maze. Feel free to contact the BACC, and feel confident that there is help on the way. We reach out to those who are in situations similar to yours, and have had some amazing results.

 

Peace....j.b.

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I was contacted by members of the Brighton cc with help and as I said I am grateful that the group can help me. I grew up on the East-side on Detroit so I don't know where anything past royal oak area. Finding a local CC has been difficult since I really don't know the area. I have been with MOCC since I became legal They seem to have a good message but also seem a little disorganized. Right now it seems like they are concentrating most of their events more on the east side. Roseville is an one hour trip for me. and I don't have transportation most of the time. I tried to contact a Farmington Hills CC but never received a response from them. After talking to members from Brighton I am looking into their CC also now. This whole thing is new to me and has been quite confusing. when I got my script they recommended MOCC and I also tried so research online which isn't very easy. There aren't enough people out there helping and showing people where to go to get the information that they need.

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Dragonoath hi again, I am so happy to see good news here and cry happy tears for you that some genuinely compassionate people have stepped up and reached out. Although I couldn't help you I am glad to see someone who is able to has come forward. I wish you and your family all the best and that your health improves soon.

 

Sincerely, Silverblue

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