caramella

Thanks guys.. I got real bad after I wrote this and I am just now feeling a bit better mentally. Life sure likes to grab you and rip you from your happy place a lot of times.. at least for me it does.. I will prevail!

My body is full of pain today. I can feel it from my head to my toes. Today is going to be one of those days where I just lay around and do nothing. Yesterday I cleaned and did laundry.. no cleaning today. It is raining right now so maybe that is why I am feeling this way, but my medicating is not helping so far. Next week 2 special people are coming into town for a bit and that should cheer me up.. but right now I am feeling very lonely. I had a dream last night that someone loved me so much and took such good care of me.. he did everything for me and I for him.. when I woke up and no one was there and then realized I don't have that.. I cried for a bit as I am doing now. I know relationships are not the most important thing to me right now, but I would sure like to be in love and have someone be in love with me. The anxiety is rising.. I must medicate and try to relax. Peace Love Unity Respect!!

We laugh and We Cry We love and We hate We miss and We long for the feelings so great. We think and We know We want and We crave We hope and We pray to be strong and be brave. We dream and We live We do and We try We are two similar beings You and I By: Carmen Paszek